Been away from blogging for quite a long time ,i reckon. But here i am.. I always have something to write about and it is always something that i like or don't like. From the title of my post people can quite conceive that the idea is to pen down a few characteristic traits of a few kinds of people.(this is mostly to express my pent up feelings.no pun intended :p)
so,here i am,thinking life is a beautiful maze that leads us to the most unexpected situations that are both astonishingly amazing as well as dramatically disastrous. I say this only because i have been to both the above mentioned worlds. It makes me wonder how it happens. i have met a splendid variety of people ranging from the drop dead gorgeous to the i'll-drop-dead-if-i-see-you types.From the non-stop yapping queens/kings to the i-won't-make-a-sound-no-matter-what types.From the most insensitive thick skinned people to the most delicate,susceptible lot.
Here i am thinking how i did manage to experience the people of both the worlds and here i am to write about it.
To kick a start,the bad lot first. I am someone who was easily manipulated.I thought i had some control over myself while in truth everybody else than i had control over me. Some people knew my problem and left me as i am,while some couldn't let the opportunity slip by to manoeuver a puppet.While i started new in college with people all new,i was befriended instantly.I knew i was good with people but this was a bit too good to be true. And it turned out to be too good to be true. Realization struck me when a bunch of popular seniors became my thickest friends. Only after a few months ,when i had lost my priveledge to own a car because i was recklessly roamimg around town with the so-called seniors,did i realize that i was being nothing but a chauffeuse to all of them. so,that ended there.I was ready to get past the alarming truth i just discovered for i thought i had the world's best bestfriend to get me through the roughest of times. She did ,actually. she got me through the roughest of times and landed me in a place i simply can't find a word to describe. Is there a word much stronger than "WORST"??Because i really can't think of one and that's exactly where she had me land.Marvelous,ain't it? The best friend happened to not like a certain thing i was doing and she couldn't quite muster up the courage to tell me on my face. Rather miss.big butt..oops..sorry.. miss.big mouth went about telling it to her posse,who were just as good as "The Hindu" at carrying the news around. But i think she felt it wasn't enough to just tell her fellow mates about the blunder I've made.She chose an alternative medium to communicate. The facebook! oh,what a sight! still remember the day when my name was tagged to the most disgraceful status. That wasn't all. I remember having seen about 700 comments under it. Now tell me,could i have been any more proud of the selection of friend i made? beats me!Moving on.I was a very friendly person.Finding friends was not at all difficult for me. Best friends were even more easier to find. Then came into my life a girl i could swear was my replica! Just like me in all ways possible,differing in some ways.We fought like cats and dogs and got back like peanut butter and jelly! Never one without the other. She was just as possessive as i was and caring too. She used to say that nobody could ever understand her like i did and nobody could she ever understand like she did me. But how did it crash and what was the reason she gave? She said i was like her best friend/competition. She said i was overshadowing her.Said i never let her be herself for she constantly kept feeling like it was a race that she had to win. I kept reading the lines over and over as she had decided to break it off with me over a text message.All i could think was "why couldn't she have told this to me earlier?" for she told me the reason after a year ,after i had begged her to tell me. I thought if there was anything i could do to set things right but i couldn't think it was possible. Off to the next. This one is real interesting. So stay tuned. Tiny frame of a body she was. I wouldn't really take her for a friend if i had the choice but since she was the only other girl in class with me,no choice i had. But she turned out to be quite the fun person i had hoped to be with.We became the thickest of pals in no time. I took care of her like she was my own.All until she packed her bags and left town without telling me. I did find out from a few others that she was taken away by her dad. I waited for months so long for a single call or least a message . Got none until february 16th when she finally called. I couldn't hold my excitement the minute i heard her voice for all i did was jump and squeal ,on the road. She sounded rather normal like we hadn't had a break even for a day. That blew me off! First thing that i did was to put myself in her shoes and think of what would i have done. I would have called her through some means just to at least assure her i was alright. She had every possible way to have least called me but yet she decided not to. But still after all those months she reappeared and tried to make it up to me. But it wasnt't and couln't be like before for i had moved on and changed so much and she couldn't get used to it. She wanted to make me feel like nothing has changed while it was obvious to the both of us that to bring it back was impossible. She wanted to remain as the best friend she had once been but she knew she was reduced to the status as the friend now. Every explanation i had tried to give her only made her grow her disapproval for my current best friend.She wouldn't realize her fault but rather just blame it on my friends thinking that i was a brainless chit that could be brainwashed! This has been the extent to which my selection of friends has gone and has gotten me trapped in the worst nightmares.
But there were a select few that always were the rainbow after a devilish downpour.I was the type of person that befriended people like me. Tough,arrogant,fun loving types. But i did find a girl that changed my way of thinking. She was literally like a character out of cartoon network,all funny and animated. The first time i saw her i thought to myself never to have a friend like her. I happened to be having the toughest time when i wouldn't have imagined for the girl i never wanted to be friends with would be the one to care for me,to have sincerely loved me for what i am and so on. Even the ones i had thought to have been my good friends couldn't comfort me the way she did. She was and is still an angel in disguise. My angel in disguise..! the person with the purest of hearts i've ever known or i ever could know!
When one angel happened to me that way,there was another that was entirely different. Two years younger than i am ,she was quite a whirlwind if i had to describe. We had similar tastes,mindsets and opinions but also had our differences. She had been with me since the time i knew i was an immature idiot to the time i can proudly say i've grown up and better than the rest. She has known the good,bad and ugly in me. Likewise i knew her too. We hated many things in each other. Constantly complained and fought over trivial issues like man and wife. I have never known i was capable of typing pages and pages of a text message until her.She could drive me to the ends of the world.But that wasn't all. She was someone who had been with me even after the worst fights when any other person would have deliberately desired for a bottle of memory loss potion just to forget me. But she kept coming back to me,though usually after i let her know i've missed her. She wasn't the easiest of people to be with but she was what was making me feel the worth of having her even without having to lose her. We fought to keep each other together that no fight is ever too big to distance us! Now she is an angel to too but she was the one who taught me that angels could disguise themselves as demons too!She was both!The perfect combination..
So, like i said,life is a beautiful maze. You can never predict what would happen. But when it happens ,you can decide on how you want to see it. As the most unfortunate happening that would keep you rooted to the gloomy side or as an unfortunate happening that will stay as a lesson for you to learn from while you make better of what is left!
I am making the best of what i have left :)
so,here i am,thinking life is a beautiful maze that leads us to the most unexpected situations that are both astonishingly amazing as well as dramatically disastrous. I say this only because i have been to both the above mentioned worlds. It makes me wonder how it happens. i have met a splendid variety of people ranging from the drop dead gorgeous to the i'll-drop-dead-if-i-see-you types.From the non-stop yapping queens/kings to the i-won't-make-a-sound-no-matter-what types.From the most insensitive thick skinned people to the most delicate,susceptible lot.
Here i am thinking how i did manage to experience the people of both the worlds and here i am to write about it.
To kick a start,the bad lot first. I am someone who was easily manipulated.I thought i had some control over myself while in truth everybody else than i had control over me. Some people knew my problem and left me as i am,while some couldn't let the opportunity slip by to manoeuver a puppet.While i started new in college with people all new,i was befriended instantly.I knew i was good with people but this was a bit too good to be true. And it turned out to be too good to be true. Realization struck me when a bunch of popular seniors became my thickest friends. Only after a few months ,when i had lost my priveledge to own a car because i was recklessly roamimg around town with the so-called seniors,did i realize that i was being nothing but a chauffeuse to all of them. so,that ended there.I was ready to get past the alarming truth i just discovered for i thought i had the world's best bestfriend to get me through the roughest of times. She did ,actually. she got me through the roughest of times and landed me in a place i simply can't find a word to describe. Is there a word much stronger than "WORST"??Because i really can't think of one and that's exactly where she had me land.Marvelous,ain't it? The best friend happened to not like a certain thing i was doing and she couldn't quite muster up the courage to tell me on my face. Rather miss.big butt..oops..sorry.. miss.big mouth went about telling it to her posse,who were just as good as "The Hindu" at carrying the news around. But i think she felt it wasn't enough to just tell her fellow mates about the blunder I've made.She chose an alternative medium to communicate. The facebook! oh,what a sight! still remember the day when my name was tagged to the most disgraceful status. That wasn't all. I remember having seen about 700 comments under it. Now tell me,could i have been any more proud of the selection of friend i made? beats me!Moving on.I was a very friendly person.Finding friends was not at all difficult for me. Best friends were even more easier to find. Then came into my life a girl i could swear was my replica! Just like me in all ways possible,differing in some ways.We fought like cats and dogs and got back like peanut butter and jelly! Never one without the other. She was just as possessive as i was and caring too. She used to say that nobody could ever understand her like i did and nobody could she ever understand like she did me. But how did it crash and what was the reason she gave? She said i was like her best friend/competition. She said i was overshadowing her.Said i never let her be herself for she constantly kept feeling like it was a race that she had to win. I kept reading the lines over and over as she had decided to break it off with me over a text message.All i could think was "why couldn't she have told this to me earlier?" for she told me the reason after a year ,after i had begged her to tell me. I thought if there was anything i could do to set things right but i couldn't think it was possible. Off to the next. This one is real interesting. So stay tuned. Tiny frame of a body she was. I wouldn't really take her for a friend if i had the choice but since she was the only other girl in class with me,no choice i had. But she turned out to be quite the fun person i had hoped to be with.We became the thickest of pals in no time. I took care of her like she was my own.All until she packed her bags and left town without telling me. I did find out from a few others that she was taken away by her dad. I waited for months so long for a single call or least a message . Got none until february 16th when she finally called. I couldn't hold my excitement the minute i heard her voice for all i did was jump and squeal ,on the road. She sounded rather normal like we hadn't had a break even for a day. That blew me off! First thing that i did was to put myself in her shoes and think of what would i have done. I would have called her through some means just to at least assure her i was alright. She had every possible way to have least called me but yet she decided not to. But still after all those months she reappeared and tried to make it up to me. But it wasnt't and couln't be like before for i had moved on and changed so much and she couldn't get used to it. She wanted to make me feel like nothing has changed while it was obvious to the both of us that to bring it back was impossible. She wanted to remain as the best friend she had once been but she knew she was reduced to the status as the friend now. Every explanation i had tried to give her only made her grow her disapproval for my current best friend.She wouldn't realize her fault but rather just blame it on my friends thinking that i was a brainless chit that could be brainwashed! This has been the extent to which my selection of friends has gone and has gotten me trapped in the worst nightmares.
But there were a select few that always were the rainbow after a devilish downpour.I was the type of person that befriended people like me. Tough,arrogant,fun loving types. But i did find a girl that changed my way of thinking. She was literally like a character out of cartoon network,all funny and animated. The first time i saw her i thought to myself never to have a friend like her. I happened to be having the toughest time when i wouldn't have imagined for the girl i never wanted to be friends with would be the one to care for me,to have sincerely loved me for what i am and so on. Even the ones i had thought to have been my good friends couldn't comfort me the way she did. She was and is still an angel in disguise. My angel in disguise..! the person with the purest of hearts i've ever known or i ever could know!
When one angel happened to me that way,there was another that was entirely different. Two years younger than i am ,she was quite a whirlwind if i had to describe. We had similar tastes,mindsets and opinions but also had our differences. She had been with me since the time i knew i was an immature idiot to the time i can proudly say i've grown up and better than the rest. She has known the good,bad and ugly in me. Likewise i knew her too. We hated many things in each other. Constantly complained and fought over trivial issues like man and wife. I have never known i was capable of typing pages and pages of a text message until her.She could drive me to the ends of the world.But that wasn't all. She was someone who had been with me even after the worst fights when any other person would have deliberately desired for a bottle of memory loss potion just to forget me. But she kept coming back to me,though usually after i let her know i've missed her. She wasn't the easiest of people to be with but she was what was making me feel the worth of having her even without having to lose her. We fought to keep each other together that no fight is ever too big to distance us! Now she is an angel to too but she was the one who taught me that angels could disguise themselves as demons too!She was both!The perfect combination..
So, like i said,life is a beautiful maze. You can never predict what would happen. But when it happens ,you can decide on how you want to see it. As the most unfortunate happening that would keep you rooted to the gloomy side or as an unfortunate happening that will stay as a lesson for you to learn from while you make better of what is left!
I am making the best of what i have left :)
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